Even when we doubt! (Another miracle).

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This miracle happened during my last stay in Italy. We were sharing a large house near Bari with old Christian friends. Their 13 year old daughter had some kind of undiagnosed problem. Doctors thought it was related to an exceptional growth spurt affecting her circulation, though they weren’t sure. It came with bouts of incredible pain. The only help they could offer were pain killers so strong they caused druglike hallucinations which scared her so that she wouldn’t take them. Her father however discovered a way to alleviate the attacks which generally came on at night by taking her for a walk every night at 2 am. to keep her blood moving.

The problem came when her sister came down with measles. We moved his daughter to a caravan in the garden hoping she wouldn’t get it, but she did. No longer able to get out of bed, let alone take a long walk, the attacks came in earnest causing her to scream and curl up in agony. The doctor offered to take her into hospital but explained they could do nothing really to help and since she was scared and wanted to stay with her parents maybe that was better.

We all prayed frantically for 3 or 4 days as, though we discovered ice packs helped relieve the pain somewhat, it was heart rending to see such a brave young girl in such agony. We all took turns to stay with her day and night, so she wouldn’t be alone when an attack came on (she’d have several a day), but it was hard to bear to hear her scream etc. It seemed our prayers were unanswered.

I was with her along with her dad one morning when another attack began. I ran for the ice packs while her dad prayed with her. A voice in my head told me firmly “tell her to stand up and walk”. I didn’t comply. Even touching her feet to the ground would set her screaming. I didn’t have the faith, so I kept silent, afraid to cause her more pain.

Then she said to her father, “Jesus told me to stand up and walk.” He didn’t hesitate but helped her up. She stood, no screaming, not only that but the pain vanished. She began to smile, then laugh. Raising her hands and praising God she walked out of the caravan and into the house totally healed. Tears were streaming down all our faces. Why our prayers were answered then and not before we didn’t know only that God had answered and a miracle had happenned.

The next afternoon she had one more attack while with her dad, but it never came to fruition. He now knew we had power over it and rebuked it before it ever got going. That is many years ago and from that time on she never had a problem with it. What of the measles? I guess that got healed too, though we hardly noticed, the other healing was so miraculous from one minute to the next.

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And Yet…

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Alone we watch last leaves of autumn fall upon this world
Fearing stark winter follows icy breath in hand.
Alone we watch the fleeting sun rise and set its measure of time
Believing one day the frost shall melt at the coming.
Alone we ponder and learn of wonders withheld,
And yet, at small space, from our present eyes
Alone we partake as one that peeps through a slit at a waiting world of wonder
One that is warmed with thoughts and emotions as yet unformulated.
For light streams through in colored glory from worlds beyond if we still ourselves to listen
Soft words of comfort echo through chasms formed by love long ago
Yet still they calm our senses , refresh our vision, as a fresh wind from the mountain.
Stop, look up, and we will see fresh vision here with God with we…

(While troubled and pained by recent attacks in London and in Syria I came across this old poem and found comfort.)

Full of the joys of spring (in autumn?)

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Yes, I’m a happy bunny! After months of waiting, referrals etc. I finally got to see a specialist who could give me a clear diagnosis of the pains I’ve been having for the last year or so in my left thigh. Not only that but the cure is great!
It seems the nerve has become inflamed, causing the muscle to contract to protect it. The cure he prescribed?
1)Yoga, which I already found tends to ease it. He loved that I was doing that as apparently it’s the best thing,gently stretching the muscle while it relaxes the nerves.
2)Taking a walk around break every 20 mins while sitting (OK not great for my writing but still pleasant)
3)Chilling, relaxing and avoiding stress. He explained the mind and nerves are closely related so a chilled mind relaxes the nerve so it can heal(just how good can it get?)
He was very good at explaining and took time to do so, explaining why the former ultrasound treatment would have irritated it (you don’t want to overstimulate a nerve!!!) He’d also studied acupuncture and holistic medicine (unusual for an NHS doctor)and was happy I didn’t feel I needed any medication(The pain isn’t bad.)
He left me feeling great.I had been concerned not knowing what was causing it, especially when it got a lot worse after “treatment” So I’m celebrating – relieved to know it’s very minor, and I can sure live with the cure! lol!

Pain. (Flash fiction.)

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Looking down at the wooden handle of the kitchen knife grasped in her fingers she took a deep breath. Ridged scars adorned her arm, raised reminders of past pain, agony that wouldn’t go away, that had become so unbearable that only more pain could drive it forth. This time would be different, this time would end all…

She felt the sting, numb yet sharp. Blood welled up, overflowed, spotting the bathroom linoleum, surging, spreading in an expanding pool. Detached she watched it grow as her mind weakened. Faces invaded her vision, the ones that hurt her, that didn’t return the love she craved. Someone was pounding on the door. It didn’t matter, they’d be too late. A whirl of darkness took her, comforting soft oblivion…

Oblivion didn’t last, light appeared. No! Not this! She wanted an end. She wanted it to stop. A form appeared in the glow, a face awash with tears. A homely face, like hers, yet filled with something overflowing. She could not look away. Then she knew – He loved her, loved her without conditions, loved her just as she was, and the love washed away the pain, washed away the scars. She gazed deep into the eyes. The tears were for her. Like a tidal wave, an awe inspiring rush of wind, his love washed through her, cleansing, healing, understanding. She was swept away in its current, waking to a hospital bed.

The banging on the door… one of the other boarders must have saved her. She recalled the blood welling across the lino. It must have reached the door… She’d failed in her attempt, but it didn’t matter, the scars didn’t matter, the pain had gone. She was loved!

My new accessories!

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Sadly a minor slip on the stairs means two weeks of a boot and crutches due to two chipped bones and possible ligament injury. At first I thought it must be broken as the pain was excruciating, I was in shock and felt like throwing up.To even move it was agony.
Things I’m thankful for:
1)It’s just a chip not a break.
2) My daughter was dropping my grandson (he usually comes to my door alone)and coped with wonderful calm and efficiency.
3) After sending prayer request messages in the car the pain dramatically eased before I got to the hospital and I could move the toes again.
We managed to fit the hospital stuff in before my daughter had to leave for a vital board meeting (just ran over 5 mins.)so she was able to drive me home.
4) I’d just done my weekly shopping.
5) I hadn’t yet put my office chair in the garage as planned (it has wheels)
6) Two of my daughters came to cook for me (due to a prior arrangement to meet up)
7) My daughter had helped me sign up to “Net Flix” the day before.
8) All pain had stopped by the afternoon and I never needed the strong pain killers the doctor prescribed.
9) The egg sized swelling on my ankle bone had completely vanished when I took the boot off to go to sleep.
10) It seems even when something bad happens God still takes amazing care of me!